and she’s left to steel her heart, let indifference be her face, leave iron within her eyes, and bleed from beneath her skin.
i wish i can offer you a hug that heals, or for you to let defiance fall, but as i can stand but helplessly aside, i give you my best wishes and courage to face whatever that’ll be hurled your way
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I have been (for some unknown reason) very busy for the past two weeks. Things keep popping up and event after event rushes me by – without realising it, two weeks have passed since i stepped into college… i am dead beat. However, my schedule for next week is already filling up fast (and honestly, i have no clue what’s going on, just a vague inkling of a packed organiser) and after next week, i’m off to langkawi for 3 days. I know i keep saying i need to get a part-time job… no scratch that. even if i only work for a month i’m gonna go get that job. i’m free from august till december!
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I haven’t found the time, but i have to go SEE A FEW DENTISTS. My teeth is horrendously ugly and i’m super self-conscious about it. Find. A. Whitening. Solution!
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Protein shakes, weight gainers, think i’ll hate them but it’s time.
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For the first time in my life (though it was obviously a set-up) I won a best-dressed competition hahaha. I got a tiara! This was the incentive for protein shakes actually. I know everyone (literally) in my life has told me to gain more weight i’ll look better yada yada but as usual, it takes you to SEE yourself before acting on it, i guess? I saw a sideway picture of myself when i asked a guy to take some pictures and…… sigh
